tennyson: (✦ and you will live forever)
with no language but a cry.
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idney Ellwood - or Elly - from Alice Winn's novel In Memoriam, is a young man born into very wealthy British high society in 1898. He is an only child and lived with his mother after his father's death. His mother's family was Jewish, a heritage which he deliberately hides, slicking his black curls back with wax. In the tradition of the British upper class, he was sent off to boarding school at a very young age and spent more time there than he did at home. He is a poet, admiring Alfred, Lord Tennyson most of all and aspiring to go to Oxford. He's very clever, quick-witted and whip-smart, but he has an ungovernable mean streak and can be a bully at times. He can be vain, proud of his looks. He is firmly gay and has been in love with his best friend Henry Gaunt since they met at age thirteen at Preshute College (think Eton-esque), although he doesn't believe his feelings are reciprocated. He intends to marry Gaunt's sister Maud so he can stay close to him when they finish university. When the Great War begins, he's eager to join up to do his part for King and country, though Gaunt - whose family is of German ancestry - is more reluctant. Elly thinks the whole thing will be a great adventure. He and Gaunt ultimately both end up at the front - Gaunt going first and Ellwood following - where their lives are forever changed.

tennyson: (✦ your body lies upon the sheets)
cemetery gates - the smiths
a dreaded sunny day
so i meet you at the cemetery gates
keats and yeats are on your side
while wilde is on mine
poet - bastille
i can't say the words out loud
so in a rhyme i wrote you down
now you'll live through the ages
i can feel your pulse in the pages
empire & the sun - the moth & the flame
'cause you're the empire and the sun
you're the voice that calls me home
you're the place that makes me want to stay
but your walls i cannot climb
dead hearts - stars
please, please tell me what they looked like
did they seem afraid of you?
they were kids that i once knew
they were kids that i once knew
youth - daughter
well, i've lost it all, i'm just a silhouette
i'm a lifeless face that you'll soon forget
and my eyes are damp from the words you left
ringing in my head when you broke my chest
save me, i'm yours - gene
i need you to save me, i'm scared
don't turn the light off and leave me
without love i am empty
you're the only one who'll have me